Friday, September 16, 2011

Somebody shoot me

I had no idea how freaking painful this surgery was going to be. Since I broke my leg, I've had surgery, and it sure didn't seem this bad. I can't even imagine putting that darn boot on and making it tight on this leg. Maybe it would feel better - but I can't even stand the thought. It feels like someone is sticking a red hot poker into my right ankle, and I took my last pain pill until morning over an hour ago. Not good. Of course all my Dr. Pepper is in the refrigerator in the kitchen and I really don't think I can get out of bed again tonight. This is serious. Matt called to see if we could watch Hailey tomorrow. Like I'd say no. Ha ha ha... I forgot Steve is going to a gun show with Bob in Fremont, but mom is coming over, so we'll be fine. I never get to see her alone anymore, which really sucks, so there's no way I was going to tell, Matt I couldn't take her. She has another ear infection, poor thing. She has ears like Matt, I'm afraid. Later, I hear Steve, I'm going to get a Dr. Pepper yet! Aaaaaah, much better. I was just thinking about my mom's stepmother tonight. Don't even know where that thought came from, but once I started thinking about her, the memories started flooding in. Millie (I called her Mio) was so good to us when we were kids. My grandfather passed away when I was 6, but I have good memories of the time she was my step-grandmother. I know my mother was probably not very nice to Kay (her stepsister) or to Millie after grandpa died... Heck, if I know my mother, she probably wasn't pleasant to them before grandpa died, but I wish we could have stayed in touch with her. I wish I had gotten in touch with her when I got older to tell her how much the time I spent with her and grandpa meant to me. I can remember going out to their house and dyeing Easter eggs, and how patient Millie was with Missy and I. I also remember going over and spending the night and Kay painted my nails and actually talked to me! I'm not sure how old she was at the time, but I though she was beautiful and I loved her pink and white striped bedroom walls. Years later I read a book called "Cathy at the Crossroads" and the girl in that book had a pink and white striped bedroom and I always thought of Kay when I read the book. Millie was a good woman, and I wish I had let her know she played an important part in my childhood. I'd also like to apologize to Kay for my mother's behavior when Millie passed away. She had remarried and moved to Arizona, but her funeral was here. Oh brother, my mother was such a bitch that day. She acted like she was in charge and I"m sure it had to bother Kay, it bothered me and she's MY mother. Maybe I'll have to find Kay and at least let her know how much Mio meant to me. Meg came over tonight and then spent most of her time on the phone with a friend. Sometimes that girl just irritates the bejesus out of her. I love her, but sometimes she just tries my patience. As long as you agree with her you'll be fine, but heaven forbid you have an opinion that she doesn't share! Holy Moses she's a royal pain! Obviously she spent some of her formative years with my mother! LOL! She's not that bad, but it sounded good! Ack, this leg is ridiculously painful. Trying to figure out how I'm going to sleep tonight. I'm sure it'll work out. I think I'm going to watch some more Ghost Whisperer - although I'm getting kind of fed up with it at this point. I can believe in ghosts, really I can, but I can't believe this whole bit of her husband dying and jumping into a body just as someone else crosses over... Sounds like "Sam" had a lot of issues in his life and would have wanted to stay and work them out... Anyway, I'm almost to season five, so I'm going to keep watching, for now anyway. That's it for me tonight!

Thursday, September 15, 2011

No More Bionic Woman

Well, the hardware is all gone and I'm back to just being me. It's more painful than I expected actually. Dr. E told Steve that he actually had to use a chisel to get the plate out, but he used the bone chips to fill in the holes, so that was good. Right? Ouch. I waited too long to put the boot on and it's all swollen, so I can't get the boot on now. Darn it. So, I've been having to shuffle back and forth from the bed to the bathroom. Mel is bringing dad's walker over tomorrow. I feel it's kind of nuts to use a wheelchair to go 10 feet! I don't feel comfortable using the crutches, too clumsy for those. I'm looking forward to having the walker.

Right now, I'm tired and my leg is really hurting, so I'm going to make this short. Night to all!

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Git 'er Done!

I have no idea what happened to this post. Darn it anyway...

Monday, September 12, 2011

Hailey Turned TWO

Hapiley had a wonderful birthday - she's quite the little social butterfly! Matt said he probably didn't hold her for more than a half hour total all day, but she sure went around the entire part and visited with everybody! Magann's sister did face painting and Hailey had a blue and yellow butterfly on her face - she was so cute! She got a lot of new toys to play with and a bunch of new clothes. One of the cutest outfits was a pair of black jeans and a leather-looking sleeveless vest - very cute and very biker babe! ROFL. We had a lot of fun - Sue V. made all the food, a lot of Italian sausage and hot dogs, lots of fresh fruit and potato salad, and Matt and Magann had gotten her a small cake from Petit's and gotten some specialty cupcakes, so everyone was able to have some cake, everything was great. I made the gift bags for the kids who attended and that was fun, I think they were kind of cute. I put off waiting them too long though, I didn't finish with them until 2:30 and I had to pick mom and Bob up at 3:30 - oops. I got them and we got to the party in plenty of time. Hailey was excited to see me, and was kind of jealous that I wanted to pay any attention to Lexi's new baby girl. I'm her nana and she's not going to let me forget it. Kylie has her own nana and it's sure not me! Nevermind that Kylie and Steven are sharing their Nanny Sue with Hailey! Watching Hails open her presents was fun. She was all for the toys, but had no use for the clothes. As soon as she'd open an outfit she'd toss it on the floor! No matter, sooner or later she's going to be a clothes horse like I was - when I was thin and buying clothes was fun! I can't wait to see her in some of her new clothes, she'll be so darling! Steve V and Sue bought her a winter coat that's going to be really cute. She's growing up so fast though, it just boggles my mind! Hailey spent lots of time running back and forth between me and Steve throughout the evening. It really made Steve's night when, after we left, Hailey fell near the swings and ran right past Matt to get a healing kiss from Papa. I have to think maybe our relationship and his relationship with my kids would have been so much better if we had been able to have kids of our own. He's finally starting to understand why I feel the way I do about my kids. When you have a child around you from the very first and you realize how much they depend on you to nurture and care for them, it makes quite a difference. I sure miss having Hailey here ever day - even every other week, what a blessing that was! In other news - I had my preop physical with Dr. S today, so everything is set for Thursday - except me. I'm always such a chicken before surgery. I'm not looking forward to 5 or 6 weeks in that darn boot again, and not being able to drive, but it will be nice if my ankle doesn't hurt so much and maybe I can walk again. I'd like to lose some of this weight I'm hauling around. I was sure hoping we'd have dad settled somewhere by this time, but apparently that's not the plan God has in mind. Mel changed her mind about moving, I know it was going to be hard for her financially, so it's probably the best thing, but I wish she wasn't so tied down with dad. Miss is worthless. Mel had told her last week that they needed to start swapping who was in charge on the weekends and since Miss had been at Ray's the week before (for 4 days), it was her turn to be home with dad this past weekend. Ha ha ha. She said "okay" like she always does, but took off like a scalded dog Friday night. She put in a cameo appearance on Saturday and then was off again. Mel doesn't want to say anything to her because she's such a royal bitch if you do, but if you don't; then she thinks she can do whatever she wants. I just want dad to be in a safe place - and that means far, far away from Missy. I can't count the number of times I've said "You need to WATCH dad, you can't sleep all day" and her response is always "Okay" and the very next day I can call dad at noon and she's still sleeping. She didn't even learn her lesson after dad sat right next to her and drank antifreeze and it didn't faze her in the least. I think if dad dropped dead in front of her, it wouldn't matter, she's so freaking stupid. I guess all I can do is be grateful that she's not in charge of me - ha ha ha, she can't even take care of herself. I talked to Dr. S today about the low dose naltraxone study for fibro, and about a different way to control pain. I'm not really happy about the Tyelenol in the hydrocodone and it's long term effect on the liver. There's a drug, new to me, called Savella that he wants me to try. I'm hoping something works, this pain is just getting ridiculous. I was in bed most of the day Friday, just overdid it on Thursday. On Saturday, I got up and did some light housework and got the dishes clean, and then I ended back up in bed before I got up to go to dad's. Adam came home from the hospital and we were invited over for awhile. Sunday wasn't too bad, at least I managed to stay up the whole day! After the surgery I'll start the Savella and see how it goes. It came with a 2 week starter pack, by that time I should know how it's going to work and then Dr. S will call in a prescription. I hope it works. I'm so tired of pain, pain, pain... Not to mention the idiots who don't get it. Speaking of which, Jason took Steve out for a beer Thursday after Hailey's party. Isn't that sweet? I'm glad Steve didn't invite him over, that little asshole isn't welcome here - at least not by me. I love the way people in this stupid family want everything to be forgotten and forgiven, but they never feel the need to apologize. Ah well, don't expect much from my family and I'm never disappointed. It was hot today, 90 degrees, but since I know the end of the long hot summer is in sight, I enjoyed the drive to and from Fremont. Just crank up the iPod and cruise on down the hghway, beautiful! I put the first scrape on my car Thursday night and nobody can blame it on medication either... I hadn't taken any pain meds at all since I was busy before I left and then I was going to drive, so I figured I'd take it when I got home... By 8:30 I was feeling pretty rocky and I just wasn't paying close enough attention when I pulled into the garage. I just got some paint smear on the mirror on the passenger side. I'm pretty sure it will buff out, but at least the first scratch is over and done! You kind of hold your breath when driving until the first scratch happens and when it does, you can relax! Yesterday was the most exciting day! The other night Dorothy and I had decided to look for Mollie, who was one of our friends from over 30 years ago. We finally found her and I had sent her a message on FB asking to be friends. She answerd me back and called me Saturday afternoon, so we made plans for her to come over on Sunday. It was so good to see her! You know you're good friends when you can see each other after 30 years and pick up right where you left off. We talked Sunday for 3 hours before she had to go - I'm looking forward to having her be a friend again and part of my life. She's still the sweet person she used to be. Love her! And THAT was my weekend!